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''Finally, I severed your ties
My eyes no longer pry
At the pages of history
Written by the misery you caused me
But here’s a recount so you don’t forget,
The reasons why I up and fucking left

23 going on 30, I said - ''Let me go please'', I begged you while groveling down on my knees
A girl with no boundaries, desperate for permission to leave
Without the empty promise of love strung just out of reach
But it was always just me,
Feeling too deeply over nothing,

We met at 18, a time I still wore my heart on my sleeve
Little did I know - I’d lose it
Unwoven by all the threads you cut in two,
and,
How you used each strand to tie me my own noose

I had something you didn’t, a light so blinding thousands could bathe in it
I was once a star, a burning inferno in the sky
Full of passion, something you liked

Fueled by the fire of ambition and pain
Strange holy creature, innocence untamed

You found an ending to the cold night that lived in your skin
Something that could bring you the feeling of daylight again

You wanted my fire
So you stole it, committing the ultimate sin
Then you used it,
abused it,
until not even an ember was left
You were a black hole that made a home inside of my chest

Without my light, I went blind
You became the only prophet I could find
You led me into darkness, and left me there to die

But now if I ever had a chance, I’d go back and rip out your spine
To prove to the world you had one, buried underneath all your deceptive lies
And I’d devour it piece by piece
A meal fit for peasants, not a queen
But who am I to say no to a snack, when you’ve left me starving?

Respect is what you preached
Until it was my boundaries you wanted to breach
Hypocritical, stereotypical
Thoughtless leech

But hey, I’m 27 now, and I decided to cut your cancer out
It only took me nearly meeting death,
For me to realize there was truth in all my doubt

For 8 years you had a hold on me,
Choking, like a wolf on a leash -
Completely unaware of its own teeth
Never biting the hand that feeds
Pronged collar up against my jugular,
Pulled so tight it cut and bleeds

One day - the angels came, the bells rang
They called out my name
I paid in sacrifice, the gift of creating life
so I could be reborn - in it’s place

Now I am alive again; not as a star; but an entire constellation

I will thrive as the lightning, the thunder, the rain
In your dreams? I'll be the nightmare you cannot escape .
Every memory, you’ll never forget me
But I can’t say the same
When everything I miss, I know now,
Was nothing but a twisted game
Played by the delusion of who you truly are
Which you refuse to face and, instead hide in shame

But hey, I’d hide it too if my soul was a bottomless, rotted shell
Filled with nothing but the broken hearts of people you’ve used and sent to your hell.''

- 2024